I'm sitting here having a Passion tea after a long day. Doing some writing and thinking. I've been wondering if my decision to move to Brazil for 4 months was the right one. It was in April of this year that I bit the bullet and said this is what I have to do. But it's a daily struggle to keep from panic and anxiety attacks at bay. I quit a good job with many comforts and benefits. But in two weeks I will be on a plane to Brazil and my uncertain future. I'm excited, I'm scared, I wanna smile the biggest smile ever, I wanna cry cause I'm scared. Outside of my Visa not arriving on time (which is a possibility) I've made my decision. Whether or not it was the right one time will tell.
This was the little quote on the back of the Starbucks cup:
I guess it's a sign - this quote along with the fact that I was drinking Passion Tea. I've made my commitment to Jiu Jitsu and Brazil and I must follow through - only good things can happen from my adventure. But I'll still always ache for a gal that did not give me a try - I know it's pathetic. But I never claimed to be anything or anyone worth admiring. Maybe a new girl in Brazil will help me forget.
No Retreat, No Regrets...Meet me by the rivers edge!
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