well I've got some good news and some bad news.
-well the Copa Cyclone Jiu Jitsu Tournament was this past weekend and I ended up winning my division - first place in the Masters (30yrs old plus) 82kg. it was a great experience overall and something I would love to do again.
i spent most of last week training with Dennis in the afternoon and doing drilling with Thomas from the house. Which paid off a lot as I felt really comfortable at the Tournament. I ended up getting a medal and will get a teeshirt from the event.
this is a good pay off and confirmation that what im doing here and taking this chance was worth it.
-I ended up going out with Thomas to Oswaldo's bar Saturday night with Thomas - we stayed there till about 4am - I actually lost track of time. Well, i ended up staying up most of the night and just letting loose for one night. it was a blow off of stream. As much as i did not want to drink alcohol down here I had fun hanging out and just letting my mind rest for one night.
-i ended up getting an e-mail from my sister sunday morning telling me that she has some bad news about my father. apparently, on Saturday he and my mother were in lethbridge shopping and were on their way out of the shopping centre and just about to load up the groceries when my mother noticed my dad was not responding when she called out his name. she went around the vehicle to find my dad lying on the ground not breathing.
this was another heart attack - caused by irregular heart beats or so ive been told. he was rushed to the hospital in bad condition.
long story short - Im coming home early. I will be leaving Rio on Wednesday at 10pm Rio time and arrive in Calgary at 12:30pm thursday afternoon.
-im not sure how to feel right now - I felt so good and on top of the world Saturday night and it all went down the drain in less than a day. Don't get me wrong i want to be with my family and would not be able to live with myself if the worst were to happen and I was still here in Rio.
But it feels like my dream and time to shine has been taken from me and cut short. Im sure there is no divine intervention but i just wonder why things could not go smoothly for me. for the first time in my life i was doing what i wanted and having things go my way. i really thought that id get my blue belt before i left and the win at the Copa Cyclone would help me on my way to that goal.
feel a bit cheated because there was so much more to accomplish - my jiu jitsu started to feel like it was getting so much better and i was finally getting it right. There was so much more to accomplish, so many more people to meet, so many more days at the beach, so many more things to see, so many more...and now it's gone.
im not sure what im going back to - outside of my family and the support. But i have no job, no prospects, and no money. i really wanted this to work out and it's gone now. im not sure if the blog will keep going. right now im not feeling so great.
take care..
Andre
-well the Copa Cyclone Jiu Jitsu Tournament was this past weekend and I ended up winning my division - first place in the Masters (30yrs old plus) 82kg. it was a great experience overall and something I would love to do again.
i spent most of last week training with Dennis in the afternoon and doing drilling with Thomas from the house. Which paid off a lot as I felt really comfortable at the Tournament. I ended up getting a medal and will get a teeshirt from the event.
this is a good pay off and confirmation that what im doing here and taking this chance was worth it.
-I ended up going out with Thomas to Oswaldo's bar Saturday night with Thomas - we stayed there till about 4am - I actually lost track of time. Well, i ended up staying up most of the night and just letting loose for one night. it was a blow off of stream. As much as i did not want to drink alcohol down here I had fun hanging out and just letting my mind rest for one night.
-i ended up getting an e-mail from my sister sunday morning telling me that she has some bad news about my father. apparently, on Saturday he and my mother were in lethbridge shopping and were on their way out of the shopping centre and just about to load up the groceries when my mother noticed my dad was not responding when she called out his name. she went around the vehicle to find my dad lying on the ground not breathing.
this was another heart attack - caused by irregular heart beats or so ive been told. he was rushed to the hospital in bad condition.
long story short - Im coming home early. I will be leaving Rio on Wednesday at 10pm Rio time and arrive in Calgary at 12:30pm thursday afternoon.
-im not sure how to feel right now - I felt so good and on top of the world Saturday night and it all went down the drain in less than a day. Don't get me wrong i want to be with my family and would not be able to live with myself if the worst were to happen and I was still here in Rio.
But it feels like my dream and time to shine has been taken from me and cut short. Im sure there is no divine intervention but i just wonder why things could not go smoothly for me. for the first time in my life i was doing what i wanted and having things go my way. i really thought that id get my blue belt before i left and the win at the Copa Cyclone would help me on my way to that goal.
feel a bit cheated because there was so much more to accomplish - my jiu jitsu started to feel like it was getting so much better and i was finally getting it right. There was so much more to accomplish, so many more people to meet, so many more days at the beach, so many more things to see, so many more...and now it's gone.
im not sure what im going back to - outside of my family and the support. But i have no job, no prospects, and no money. i really wanted this to work out and it's gone now. im not sure if the blog will keep going. right now im not feeling so great.
take care..
Andre
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